Existential homeostasis

Existential homeostasis

How shall I live, what shall I do is a question that we ask ourselves constantly, explicitly or implicitly.
There seem to be emotions that accompany how that question is behaviourally answered:

Boredom accompanies a not knowing how to answer the question.
Excitement accompanies a good fit to how I see my life and self.
Resentment accompanies a sense of acting on undesired duties and the list could go on.

The question how shall I live, is really a question of how shall I use my will. The mechanism to use my will is aggression, where you seek to manifest your will in the world, which requires a carving out of your desires in the face of the other processes that occur in the world.

So to create in the world from cooking baked beans, building a house, or writing a poem uses some aggression to manifest your will.  Once the thing is created, engaged with,  in time the question how shall I live returns and you need to answer it freshly and create more, maybe even by destroying what you have created, by throwing it away, replacing it etc.

Picking up on Freuds distinction between regressive and progressive instincts, i.e. death drive and pleasure principle, where he sees some instincts wanting to return to a previous state, some to a later state.  It would seem there are two ways around the existential homeostatic circle. On one hand you can assert your will,  creating your life using aggression and in time then you will die. On the other hand you can use your aggression to destroy what has already been created and seemingly move the other way around the homeostatic circle and in time you will die.